It's the time of the year again

So, time flies. It's the time of the year again. Everyone, well almost everyone will be thinking of where to countdown or how to spend time with their love ones. Some of the people will just be sitting there thinking, or maybe reflecting what has happened throughout the year. I didn't change much, still the confused, weird old me.

Oh well, let's then do a flashback then. This year is not an easy year for me. Everything has been very uneasy to cope, to solve. I wonder why problems only arise when one gets older. Earlier this year, first day of this year, I was happily spending time with one of my best friend in getting highlands. That was one of the best trip I've ever had. Well definitely not the place we went, but the person I was with. Stress kicked in eventually, everyone started preparing for exams. It was my first time sitting for LLB examinations after a year of not touching even a book. That was disaster. Nightmare everyday, tons and tons of work pending to be done. However, things have passed and exam was soon over.

I also had quit my job. Yea quit it. I really enjoy teaching but just that, things happen and I have to leave. It was not an easy decision to make, and no explanations needed. I think I'm old enough to sort out things on my own, without explaining to others. If you want to judge me, go ahead.

Things are not going right in the family. I hope everyone will do fine in the coming years. Please get well and watch us grow. Love you mom.

And then spent time doing nonsense after exam. Basically nothing. I am such a coward haha. Should have tried to ask for a job in the firm but I didn't have the courage. I am afraid of uncertainty. Afraid of failure, afraid of people rejecting me. Therefore, didn't applied for any. Fortunately, opportunity flied in. I got a job teaching chinese in a secondary school, as a temporary teacher. Well, my favourite job. Enjoyed working there, interacting with my students. And some really surprising comments from them too.

Then, results came out. The only thing I can say is, hard work pays off. And persistency is needed.

Talking about friendship, people change. Things that one can see with their naked eye does not represent the truth. I thought I have the best bunch of friends but unfortunately I might be the only one thinking the same. Well, it's heartbreaking knowing so much stuff but still, its reality. And its time to learn how to face the heartbreak and reality right?

Relationships, nothing basically. Still you. Seriously I wish I could get over you and get some life. Perhaps its me. I am so scared of everything. 11 years of friendship and I didn't want to ruin it. But if such friendship couldn't stand one sentence, then what kind of friendship is this? Phew. And, thanks for talking to me again. I suck in explanations. Am gonna make things worst so do not ask.

Still, thank you everyone for be there with me whenever I needed help. Thank you, especially you. Thanks for being there with me. Thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry over. Even if you've said nothing at all still thanks. I feel stronger with you being there for me. No matter what happens in the future, I will always be there for you just like how you are there for me.


Some of my favourite photos and person.







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